My life and what I'm about :]

This whole breakup thing is getting harder to deal with each day. i find myself constantly thinking about you, looking at your pictures and profile reading all your messages, comments over and over again, holding anything you gave me so tight. i wish this were just a dream I could wake up from and you’d still be mine, but reality is you’re not :/ it sucks I’ve never felt this way about anyone before usually i can get over a break up so easily and be ready to move on but everything with you is so different, maybe its all we’ve been through and done or maybe its thde fact that i am and always will be in love with you. i don’t just love you i am genuinley INLOVE with you. i  wish i could get over you i’m sure you’ree over me and almost with someone else by now. what’s it been almost a week? yup….i still can’t grasp the thought of not being able to call you mine. we promised we’d be together forever and there would be nothing that could tear us apart, i guess that wasn’t true. idk though but its hard i wanna just hug you and look in your eyes again but idk if ill ever be able to again. i’m sorry i hurt you and lied to you. i made mistakes just like anybody does. i’m so sorry. i’m changing so much to even get one last chance but idk if you care enough to do so ughhhhhhhhhhhhhh this really bites i hate not being with him anymore i love this guy to death he’s so different from anyone else i’ve ever dated idk how i’ll get through this, but i’ll try my best, maybe fate will bring us back together again. i sure hope so

Random Survey.

The last time you kissed someone, what color of shirt were they wearing?

I don’t remember, it was 2 weekends ago

What city is the person you wish you were with in right now?

Lincoln :/

What are your plans for the day?

Nothing

What did you have for breakfast?

String cheese

What kind of booze did you last take shots of?

I don’t drink

What are you wearing currently?

Shorts and Kids Net shirt (work shirt)

What color of hair do you find the sexiest on the opposite gender?

Brown or blonde

Have you slept over at a member of the opposite sex’s house in their bed?

Pretty much every weekend :]

Who last slept in your bed besides you?

Probably nobody

Is your spring break shorter this year?

I don’t know

What time did you wake up today?

Like 12

If the last person you had sex with asked you to date them, would you?

I am dating him :]

How long until your next birthday?

11 months

What color is your car? (Or the one you drive most often)

Blue

What celebrity did your most current ex resemble?

I don’t know and quite frankly I could care less

What size of jeans do you wear most often?

10 

What’s your favorite kind of cereal?

Frosted mini wheats and life

What’s something you want to purchase next time you’re at the mall?

Hmmmm idk 

How long have you been single? (Or dating your current interest)

2 years, 3 months, and 3 days

When you lost your virginity, were you sober?

Yes, I don’t drink

What was the last movie you watched?

Little Rascals :]

Has someone of the opposite sex ever told you that you were sexy?

Yeah

If you could see any musician live, front row, who would you choose?

Taylor Swift

Do you think your best friend’s significant other is attractive?

She doesn’t have one, but I’m trying to hook her up with a great friend of mine :]

Do you own any books written by musicians?

No

Have you ever had a problem, that you needed to tell someone something that they needed to know, but you didn’t know how to because you’re afraid that once you tell them it will get turned back around on you and they’ll believe someone else over you???? Yeah, that’s what I’m going through right now. I NEED to tell my boyfriend something that’s bothering me so much, but I fear he’s going to talk to the other person about it and it will all be turned around on me!!!! Ughhhh HELP ME!!!!!!

I haven’t posted anything in a few days and I’ve kinda got stuff on my mind! First of all yesterday and today have been pretty great days. I got to spend a bunch of time with my mom :] She finally got a few days off to get into a routine for her new job! (We both start on the 9th) I’m so excited!!!! :D  But anyway I’ve gotten to talk to Josh alot which happend to make me very happy :] He makes me smile like crazy, whenever I talk to him I can’t help but be happy! There’s so much I can say about him, but I’ll save that for another time. Hehe! Okay, I have some of the best friends in the whole world, unfortunately I trust way too easily when I shouldn’t! Seriously if you make plans to do something KEEP YOUR PROMISE!!!!!! I get things come up, but really???? You can’t even call and say you just want to spend time with your bf? I wouldn’t care, its the fact you 1.Didn’t even call and 2. Completely ignored my text! Wow really???? Some “friend” you are! I’m pretty understanding and know things come up, but you know at least have the decency to call and say you can’t, ughhhh people annoy me when they do this shit!!!! Alrighty enough ranting lol :] I hope this week goes by fast, I’ve got nothing going on until Friday when I go in to do all my paperwork :] yayyyy hahahaha Then hopefully going to Josh’s for the weekend, ughhhh I haven’t seen him since the weekend of his birthday! I really miss him! And really can’t wait to see him! :] :] :] :]

So I watched The Cat in the Hat with my mom this morning! I forgot just how funny that movie is! Now watching Shrek the Third, then when mom wakes up we’re going grocery shopping woohoo……NOT!!!!!! I really don’t wanna go! I’m looking up videos on youtube, but can’t really think of any to look up……hmmmm! Job interview Tuesday, yayyyy! I’m so excited, but extremely nervous! I think I got it in the bag though! Going to call my friend tomorrow night to better prepare myself for it! As soon as I get enough money I’m getting my new pretty PINK dell inspiron hehe :D I’m bored! Not much else to say……Alright bye :]

Today’s been a not so good day! I’m totally bored and don’t feel all that well! I’m missing him terribly and I worry its not as important to him! :/